The Road to Peace and Tranquility
I've been rather quiet on here as of late and the truth of the matter is that I've been extremely busy. I mean busy to the point where I tend to not even want to write. That's unlike me for real. But between therapy on my knee 3 days a week at 7am each morning for 2 hrs each session, working crazy hours the last part of November through the past week and just tending to family issues, a brotha has been drained. But through it all, everything is good. I have no complaints about life as things are currently. In fact, God continues to bless me and my wife in so many ways. No matter how good or bad times have been, I have to say that God is indeed good.
I've been doing a lot at church in working with the youth the past 9 months or so and I really enjoy it. Most of the kids are between the ages of 12-17. I've never considered myself a leader, I just love to talk. Yet I feel inspired to just talk openly to the kids about life and things from a Biblical perspective as it relates to life. In the process, I've nurtured myself in so many ways and been reading the Bible a lot more. It's very therapeutic. We've all made mistakes and Lord knows I've made my share of bad ones not just in my teenage years, but in my adult life as well. I feel like when I talk about things with the kids that they trust me. I talk about issues that have affected me and just how difficult things were during certain periods of my life.
Some of the topics are uncomfortable to talk about, but I feel that these discussions are necessary. These kids are hurting out here. It pains me to see some of the struggles that they're going through and these are just kids that are coming to church. I can't even imagine what's going on with children who don't have any kind of spiritual guidance. So for a few Sunday's a month at 8:30, I'm there running my mouth. I feel like it's my obligation. You never know who you can touch with positive reinforcement and words and I if I impact the life of one youngster out here, it's all worthwhile.
All this to say that I truly feel so blessed right now. Sometimes I look back on my life and feel like I don't deserve to be here. I'm serious, I start to tear up when I think about it. I've cheated death a few times. I've been in places where I shouldn't have been with folks who got caught up. For some reason I didn't. I've lost a lot of friends from my childhood to violent circumstances. I know a lot of cats who are locked up and will probably be for their natural lives. I've dealt with tragedy of epic proportions from emotional distress to debilitating physical ailments which spurned addiction to painkillers to personal loss of just about everything that I owned. I mean truly starting from the bottom after being almost at the top. Yet I'm still here standing tall... well, all of 5'9"... LOL. But seriously, that's not me, that's God.
Another blessing has been bestowed upon me and my family and again I'm thankful to God for shining His light down on us. We all dream of a location where we can reside in peace and serenity. A home where we don't have to worry about certain elements that we grew up under. Most folks don't know that I've moved 22 times in my life. 22 times!!!! I'm only 36. You do the math. You aint got to worry anymore why my body feels like I'm 60 with all that moving around. I gotta carry WD40 in my back pocket. But honestly, I prayed in earnest that I would have the financial means to provide stability for my family and in raising children. The Lord has provided for us and we're going to have that home. I'm so excited right now that I can't even sleep. Look at the time of this post. Heck, the Cowboys just lost and I don't even care. I suppose that I'll get a few hours of sleep before getting up to be at church for 8:30. Best believe that we've got a testimony to give.
Peace & Love...